Being still has been the ongoing theme of the last year, I have found myself in bed more this year than I have in my entire life. Every time I start to get annoyed with yet some new complication that is taking time from my already over scheduled life, I remind myself that there is a lesson to be learned somewhere in this time of required rest. That whatever lesson I am meant to learn can only be learned in stillness. It is during these times, that I am reminded of the quote by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin,
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
I have quite the eclectic spiritual history, my early childhood was spent going to the Church of Christ, while legalistic in their views what I remember most about this time is love, and the Biblical education I received has been a firm foundation though out my life in which I have been able to build upon. As a young teenager, we started attending a charismatic spirit-filled church. This church was suppose to be more open but my memories are not filled with that so much as dogma, and a form of fundamentalism that has done more damage to my spirit than it helped. It also taught me how damaging close mindedness can be not only to your spirit but to those around you. I think this drastic change in churches has been somewhat to blame for my constant search. Throughout my adult life I have been a seeker of Spirit, I have looked for it in about a million different churches and books. Where I have found it is almost always in another soul.
The last 5 years have been filled with searching for truth and the most spiritual growth. I have had to tear down every belief I held and examine it. I have become friends with atheists, liberals, Wiccans, Jews, Mormons, Agnostics, Seventh Day Adventists, Spiritualists, Buddhists, Catholics, Pagans, Native American Spiritualists, Christians who viewed the Bible from a more abstract view and from all of these people I have learned something. I find that no matter how different our beliefs are, we agree more than I would have thought. With each interaction I have walked away with a deeper understanding of who they were, who I am, who God is, and of humanity as a whole.
It seems like so many people want you to have clearly defined lines on what you believe but I don’t believe I will ever be that way. Thankfully, Eric is firmly against labels and has really helped me to embrace this. When I think about God now, it is through the lens of all the people I have met over the years and looks more like spinning strands of color, no perfectly straight lines but rather lines intersecting and changing direction and colors. It is not meant so much to be understood but to be felt.
One of the purposes of this blog was a place where I could go and share my thoughts with others but it was also a way for me to continue to learn from others. So please if you feel so inclined share with me what your beliefs are, even just one thing you know for sure. I suspect that we may not always agree, in fact I can almost guarantee we won’t but what I have learned is that every time we refuse to hear someone else’s truth we harm ourselves. We don’t have to agree we just have to have ears to hear and a heart open to someone who before we might have discounted. I only ask that we share and respond in a spirit of love and openness.
What do you believe?
What do you know for sure?